So it’s already december 3th. Only 21 days to Christmaseve and I’m not done with all the gifts get but I have made lussekatter (Swedish saffron buns) a lot of them. Maybe I should have a small christmasparty so they will end. I can’t bake or make food for 1-3 people I always make for a army!? I’m like my mom in that way,make more than necessary,but I think it’s a good thing….maybe….
Well October and the beginning of November have been both wonderful and horrible. One of my friends past away and it did come as a chock. I have change work and other stuff with the army.
Last night I hade to turn my night to day again becuse I work nights this week. I started to make cookies for a hole army and on top of that I made ice cream and fudge. I like to bake,I forget about everything else and stop thinking. But on the other hand I don’t eat the stuff I make😂
Another lovely thing is that when I woke up this after none I looked out the window and watched all the snow,I love snow! ❄️
My bestfriend pickt me up at work and we went to Ikea, just for look but uhm yeah that dident went so well…. I bought a frying pan, a big one! And then storage gadgets so I get my order in one cupboard at home, there is chaos there right now.
Dinner in the making and the master chef told me to sit on my ass and drink my wine,well and that was the only thing I did,pretty awesome if you ask me.
And here is my best friend in the whole wide world. I always the get the question is it possible to just be friends with a dude? Yes stupid most of my friends are dudes and my best friend is a dude.
And this deer are so cute, watched them when I was drinking my coffe and the played around in the snow.
It did actually hold for a couple of hours outside in the windy and snowy day. My day have been totally awesome!
I left the town pretty early and meet up a friend in Uppsala for breakfast and lunch. I have seen amazing art,old castle,a magnificent church and a library to day for! And the amazingly a 1500 years old bible. The silver bible and it was pretty cool.
I have laughed and smiled all day long. It’s have been genuine funny.
November started with rain and storm. But know on the evening it’s snowing.
Today I got my last stuff after months from my former love. It’s a chapter and a book to close now. All my emotions are kaos but it will calm down sooner than I expect.
From now it’s all about me,myself and I. I have a bunch of stuff to do and I will focus on that and still try to make all my dreams in to plans. When I write this and look out the window and see the snow…it’s make me smile and I got flashbacks from another special person who I will be able to give my full attention. Need to stop write here guys I need to make a call to this one person.
Have a lovely evening 💋
Time fly’s by! Summer is almost over but yesterday when I was going to work it was little freezing outside 5 °C IN AUGUST! That´s just depressing! I´m not ready for autumn yet, I still want to walk around in my dresses and summer heels. Today is a bit warmer but not summer warm. Okey I love autumn but not in august in the middle of September yes.
And the other part I don´t really know where all my autumn and winter clothes are…They are somewhere…And they need to stay in that hidden place some more weeks. But I can admit I bought some new cloths last week just for autumn season.
At the moment i don´t know whats up or down right now. And I don´t think the seson know if it´s autumn or spring. The last days it´s have been like a grey november and a rainy one to! My mood is in the same grey as outside my window. I have problem to understand that I´m lonely,I don´t have some one home.And when I get home I don´t have some one who is playing music or a game on the computer. I´don´t have some one to talk to or hug when I get home. My home feels like a shoebox and it´s not my home! It´s my stuff and my table but when I walk in it´s not feels like my home. So to ignore I have been sleeping on the couch home and at my best friend/my parent and have not been home for many night since that day I don´t want to remember. For the last three rainy and grey days I have been in the apartment that is my so called home, and guys it´s like a hell. I don´t want to be there!
But to day I will try for the first time in weeks take all the boxes with stuff and put them into a place. After that I will put my hair up in pincurls. Tomorrow I want to have nice curls or if it´s stil rainy and grey a nice hairdo and a hat on my head! In the middle of this depresed me I can´t look like a hobo or a borring person that just get heart broken….So it´s better to look like a moviestar from old hollywood or like a doll.
Even if he will find a new and share his life with her I know one thing. I made a tatto in his mind and heart. I will always have a place that he can´t ignore or remove. He will keep looking for some parts of me in the other one but he won´t find the pices. Beacuse I´m who I´m and nothing can change it and of course I´m once in a life time women. I will always love him even if I want to hate him I can´t. I can´t beacuse I love him and only wish him good things. Right know I don´t want him to flirt or look at other girls but mayby after a year i can wish him luck to find some one but for now hell no.
But for know I will pretend that I´m all okay and the best revenge is to look good! 😉
Well after a mental breakdown (happens to be alot last weeks) i Took My ass and walk down to a hobbystore. Notebooks and pencils with polkadots. Hope this Will make me write again and get My life back on track. At the moment I feel like a ghost and Im more sensitive then ever and thats bad,really bad!
Candels and tea! And if it´s still dark outside always candels to get the morning even more cozy,blanket and a magazine or a book to read. When I feel fit fot the day I gett dress and plan my day.
And pretty much I end up reading books of how to style you home vintage or well anything about vintage and 50´s. To get som inspiration for my mini apartment and what kind of smart solutions to make my home feel bigger and look even more vintage. Some times I find something I love and make a DIY project of it.