This will be my first summer with out any plans or any idés at all. Nothing at all. At first it feel really boring to have no plans at all when every one else have. But then again I remembered that I have been inside my own bubble and that for the past 6 months with out meeting people and do stuff at all. I only leave my apartment for my job, going to my horse ❤ and for the gym. Other wise I have been inside my apartment and haven´t done anything social at all. Why? Because my heart is broken in a billion pisces and I´m far away from a recovery.
So this summer I will let any thing and any funny things show up and try to actually have fun for real and not be as borring as the last moths. I want to make this summer special. I want it to be magic with adventures! And I want to do a couple of photoshoots I really miss the camera and be the one in the focus. The camera is my friend and it make me feel like a superstar.
I want to go to Power Meet in Västerås this year to. I want to stay out late in the summernight, I just want to have a great summer. Without stupid boys and idiots! Just my crazy friends and I.
One thing i know about this summer is that it will be magic and the sky will show me all the stars and half of my dreams will came true….Or I will make them came true. In the end I think this sumemr will turn out pretty good.
Do you have any plans for the summer?
In my makeup bag on the summer I don´t have much makeup at all! On the days I only wear mascara and eyebrow pomade. Perhaps a little liptint and of course sunscreen spf 50! Protect your skin inte sun girls! I don´t like to wear much makeup on regular base inly at partys/photoshoots. But at the summer I highly dislike to use it. It can destroy your skin and give pigment spots. Thats why I use as little as possible. Back to my make up bag!
The day makeup:
Red liptint, mascara and eyebrow pomade , sunscreen. This is just the basic for a day in the sun or at carshows.
The party/night makeup:
I got easily tan even under a parasol (?!) so here is what I use for my makeup at nights.
Sunpowder, hihlighter, eyeliner, mascara, eyebrow pomade and lipstick. And it´s my red lipstick from m.a.c cosmetic in the color Ruby Whoo . Sometimes I use eyelashes but thats not often at all. My own are long enough.
How do you use your make up in the summer?
Well for the last 14 days I have tried to dress up in color! It´s hard because I always dress in black and 99% of my wardrobe are black. Black is my favorite color and It´s hard to try lighter colors like grey,with,navy blue and army green and of course white, but white is a okey color, I almost like it. So for my now its t try to dress my self in lighter and colors. And yes it can be boring with black all the time, but I feel more comfortably in black so this will be a project for me this spring/summer…..
But my hair will turn even lighter and I think this is something like a new chapter thing in my life, this year have so far been a hell for me and why not change my hair color and my wardrobe to make it a little bit of fun. I have my 2 best girl friends ever Sandra and Connie who have been pushing my forward and make my life a little more sparkling and pink and glamorous
So on my list for must do this!!!!
At the moment i don´t know whats up or down right now. And I don´t think the seson know if it´s autumn or spring. The last days it´s have been like a grey november and a rainy one to! My mood is in the same grey as outside my window. I have problem to understand that I´m lonely,I don´t have some one home.And when I get home I don´t have some one who is playing music or a game on the computer. I´don´t have some one to talk to or hug when I get home. My home feels like a shoebox and it´s not my home! It´s my stuff and my table but when I walk in it´s not feels like my home. So to ignore I have been sleeping on the couch home and at my best friend/my parent and have not been home for many night since that day I don´t want to remember. For the last three rainy and grey days I have been in the apartment that is my so called home, and guys it´s like a hell. I don´t want to be there!
But to day I will try for the first time in weeks take all the boxes with stuff and put them into a place. After that I will put my hair up in pincurls. Tomorrow I want to have nice curls or if it´s stil rainy and grey a nice hairdo and a hat on my head! In the middle of this depresed me I can´t look like a hobo or a borring person that just get heart broken….So it´s better to look like a moviestar from old hollywood or like a doll.
Even if he will find a new and share his life with her I know one thing. I made a tatto in his mind and heart. I will always have a place that he can´t ignore or remove. He will keep looking for some parts of me in the other one but he won´t find the pices. Beacuse I´m who I´m and nothing can change it and of course I´m once in a life time women. I will always love him even if I want to hate him I can´t. I can´t beacuse I love him and only wish him good things. Right know I don´t want him to flirt or look at other girls but mayby after a year i can wish him luck to find some one but for now hell no.
But for know I will pretend that I´m all okay and the best revenge is to look good! 😉
I love candles
Bollinger champange and a perfect dinner for two, my boyfriend suprised me.
Goofy but i LOVE this outfit!
Mac is the BEST make up brand! I Use this matt eyeshadow Omega as a contouring,it´s perfect for light skinn. This shadow is more browngrey.
Hidding in my vintage Dior wool scarf = I can´t live with out this one, it´s perfect for this winternights!
I want her hair. The CURLS LOOK and yeeeah the volium to.I want her hair!
Most of you probably recognize yourselves in these points. There are some things that irritate and sometimes hamper the style . Below you can see some things that bother me . Do you recognize you, or do you have something else that bothers you?
1. hairpins always disappears 200 to 2 l eftor just when looking for the hairpins and find 4 but 3 of them are broken …
2. Find the perfect hair spray , preferably a waterproof .
3. Weather and wind. I love the fall and winter . Snow Storm and rain . But when I got my hair in a perfect hairdo or perfect curls .
4. Find clothes and shoes for every season . Especially winter and autumn , I find it difficult to dress . Mostly because usually all the rockabilly summer clothes tailored .
5. Get perfect curls without becoming tangled or 80´s poodle.
6. That you almost always see / feel dressed up even though you are not.
7. Find comfortable but stylish shoes !!!!
8. You own several hair flowers than you can use in a year.
9. Get smooth eyeliner vings every day … I have days when it look like a five year old have tried to do my eyeliner.
10. Find a pillbox hat with a black veil . Feels like an impossibility right now. Anyone know where to find it?