The other thing is that I have one wardrobe for all my vintage dresses and I realize that I have to many of them. Anyone who’s intressted just comment with your email and I will send you pictures and price,the will be sheep,better someone love them and use them!Same about shoes and coats…
After a bunch of bad news and another heartbreaking news (again) I still have the gym. Feels like my home at some moments. Last night (I´m kind of crazy) when my tears streaming from my eyes I went out for a long run,trying to clear my mind. To put all the pieces of all news and shit together. It diden´t help as much as i hoped for.
Today at my lunch I went down to the gym. Almost at the same moment a walk t in I could feel my brain slowdown,my body relax and a moment of calm surround me. Like a warm hug. This is a big part of me, it´s here all those months when I started to give up on my self I was here and I did not give up. I created my self here when I had hit the bottom of life so hard. No plans in my life,i was so sad that I cried all the time. But the gym was always there for me. Never asked me silly quietens and did always understand.
I started 2 years ago to be healthy but for 3 months ago or maybe 4 I told my self to create a new me a better me. I have not done this just to prove that I can but even (if you read this you knew who you are) so you could see me in the right way, who I really are and how healthy and strong I have become and that I´m that person who always smile and laugh.
But now this is just for me,myself and I. The person I´m right now is Anna 2.0 the best of me and I´m going to be better. When I started this journey after hitting the rock bottom I only knew that this was my only choose to survive. 2 years (almost little shorter) later I look back at old photos and just OMG did i look like that!? Just a skeleton with skin on!? Eeeuuuwww. Today miss hourglass figure is here to stay but need even more muscles and become stronger before I can feel satisfied.
But look at the picture above and the once here under. At this point I had already started and this are after I think 1 months of training.The first picture is from 2014 don´t remember when i take it. My weight at the time was 43 kilo and I´m 171 cm tall. Today my weight is around 63 kilo after 2 years and it´s 20 kilo more and it´s muscles and a more healthy body and stronger than ever, I love my new hourglass body and I got a BOOTY and BOOBS! It´s a pretty big change and i like the new me better.
I can see the big different and I feel it. This is what the gym help me with. The gym have been here all the time and the gym have never disappoint me . Even if I´m sad I go to the gym, even if I´m happy I go to the gym. I helps me to clear my mind and calm me down. It makes me to feel and be better. My husband/lover/boyfriend and my long lifetime relationship is the gym now and forever. Always has and will always be.
Yes they are magic okej but not totally magic. I work on my booty at the gym ,about 3-4 times a week. I want a nice ass. But the pants I have don´t show my ass in a good way or if they do they are not so nice on my leggs…. So I have heard a lot about this pants from W.R UP and fitness girls instagram and blog about them, they love them. Well they look nice sooo I orderd 3 pants. Dark grey, Dark green and black. But i took low wasted next time i will take high wasted. They are perfect rockabilly/pinup pants to. You don´t need to work out as I do beacuse the will ”highlight” your ass. You feel really pretty in them and want to show your ass more than your boobs, or thats what I´m doing 😉
Heres my ass in this awesome dark grey freddy pants! I HAVE a ass in this pants! And this other pictures under is from One more REP and you can see how the pants are made to show your ass.
I really recomend this pants, they are awesome and they fit really well. You can move in them and you can even work out in them if you want to. For me this is perfect for rockabilly/pinup look and it makes your curves show!
I will not lie, as you guys know,I´dont feel really good at this time in my life. I can´t even see my future. My heart hurts as hell so I decided to make a new and BIG change in my life and that even including goals of this year that i will try to finish. In one year and it will be helping for me in this progres. So what have I done and what is it I going to try to finsih?
What I have done:
Going back to the gym and hit the shit,feeling sore but satisfied.
Foodprep! change every singel thing, no suger,no carbs and so on. Only healty food and food that will help me to rech my goals at the gym.
Throw every singel pice and stuff I don´t use anymore.
2 photoshoot booked one in february and the other one in marsh!
What I will try to rech:
My driving licens,it´s have been to long….
New apartment and not the small shobox I live in at the moment.
Not work every day
Going away to London
Be sexy as hell! But hey the gym helps 😉
Do you have any goals or dreams you want to came true this year? Or do you have something else you want to make for your self?
Jepp! This is what have happend to me. My heart turned into a billon pices and my life turned upside down, I lost time and I diden´t know how I was suppost to handle this. Befor this happend I had everything I wanted. But from one day to another everthing turned to be the opposit. Something snap and I was sitting on the kitchen floor and crying my eyes out. Every pice in my body hurt. my heart hurt, it was horrible to breath. My words was smasched down to the floor and my heart riped out from my cheast and crush to the kitchen floor. I have been walking around in a grey fog for the past four weeks. I have no answers and I will never get close to get any.
The past weeks I have cry my self to sleep many nights. Beeing home and just walking around like a zombie! Don´t know what I should do. I have pick up my guitar and writing songs again. I have listen more to music and I have been back at the gym and train so hard that I almost vomit and and my muscles is burning. Thats almost totaly great I wil get fit faster but mental = I´m a disaster. The only thing I know is that I love this person still and I can´t hate him,even if I want to,I can´t.
I need to pine and after that pick up my pices and pull my self together and be the laughing,funny,smiling and love to live the life girl I´m. Who likes to do crazy stuff and just live my life again. But it will take some time. I´m not there yet. I wish that this just were a nightmare and i will wake up…..but it´s reality.
Just ordered these cool tights to wear at the gym. Now that I’m getting better and soon can drag me down to the gym again it’s more fun with new workout clothes . Have a pair of neon pink with purple at but want a new ones to so it had to be this galaxy patterns this time! So next week they will arravie . Saw a nother couple I want but I can actually order them at the next salary and then I order even a new sports bra . You find the tights here ICANIWILL
Börjar sent idag som tur är. Kom hem 03:00 från gymmet imorse. Gjorde mina matlådor och tog en lång dusch innan jag somna vid 04 tiden. Det blir lite konstigt när man vänder på dygnet, allt görs tvärt emot vad man gör på dagen. Men jag föredrar att jobba sent.
I natt blir det gymmet igen efter jobbet,men jag kommer köra lika hårt som jag gjorde idag (hahaha blir knasigt) med fokus på armar,axlar. Jag älskar styrketräning. Det är jobbigt men det är roligt och skönt. Smällde på ett kilo extra på hantlarna och la till 5 kilo på maskinerna för att det skulle ta.
Känslan när man börjar känna sig starkare igen är obeskrivligt underbar. Längtar tills jag är tillbaka i full styrka och kan öka vikterna ännu mera. Mina armar som varit pinar har fått muskler! Jag kan ha linnen igen 😀
Starting late today , fortunately . Came home from the gym 3:00 this morning. Made my lunch boxes and took a long shower before I go to sleep around 04. It gets a little strange when you turn your days into nights , everything is done contrary to what you do on the day. But I prefer to work late . At night it becomes gym again after work, but I will run as hard as I did today ( hahaha gets weird ) focusing on arms, shoulders . I love weight training. It’s hard work but it is fun and comfortable. Slammed for one kilogram extra on the dumbbells and added to 5 kg of the machines so it would take. The feeling when you start to feel stronger again is indescribably wonderful. Wait until I ‘m back in full strength and can increase the weights even more . My arms who had been tormenting ‘ve got muscles! I might have tops again 😀