Jepp! This is what have happend to me. My heart turned into a billon pices and my life turned upside down, I lost time and I diden´t know how I was suppost to handle this. Befor this happend I had everything I wanted. But from one day to another everthing turned to be the opposit. Something snap and I was sitting on the kitchen floor and crying my eyes out. Every pice in my body hurt. my heart hurt, it was horrible to breath. My words was smasched down to the floor and my heart riped out from my cheast and crush to the kitchen floor. I have been walking around in a grey fog for the past four weeks. I have no answers and I will never get close to get any.
The past weeks I have cry my self to sleep many nights. Beeing home and just walking around like a zombie! Don´t know what I should do. I have pick up my guitar and writing songs again. I have listen more to music and I have been back at the gym and train so hard that I almost vomit and and my muscles is burning. Thats almost totaly great I wil get fit faster but mental = I´m a disaster. The only thing I know is that I love this person still and I can´t hate him,even if I want to,I can´t.
I need to pine and after that pick up my pices and pull my self together and be the laughing,funny,smiling and love to live the life girl I´m. Who likes to do crazy stuff and just live my life again. But it will take some time. I´m not there yet. I wish that this just were a nightmare and i will wake up…..but it´s reality.