My basic outfit

It´s still pretty cold outside so today I wear my grey turtleneck top. I love it,so soft and in a perfect grey shade. My pants are from Freddy Wrup in some beige/cream color. Comfy outfit with my (very) high heels.
 And I start to get a booty! I love squats 

My training for the next months

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I´m back in my training bubble again and it feels amazing. This last week I have been at gym 6 days and it feel normal for me again. I´m a horsegirl and have my own horse since 10 years back so build up the muscles at the gym make me a better dressagerider and more stable on the horseback.

I will continue to train hard with me and my horse 5-6 days a week and the gym 5-6 days a week. One rest day is the plan maybe two.

I train my whole body . Both fitness and strength . Something I’ll get better at this fall is to start jogging more out in the forest . Loves jogging in the sunset or sunrise in the fall so it’s something I’m actually going to try to do very much.You who have followed my blog for a while knows that I fight against eating disorders and that training has been my way to be healthy . But also to cope more , today I feel very good physically and is happier because I can ride much more and bothered all the more.

You who do not have the desire to learn about training and so just scroll down to the next post❤

As pinupa model and rockabilly you want curvs and yes I have it but I do not have a butt😦 I’m training to get a butt and nice legs ! You who have a butt of nature be happy because I’m jealous! My training they coming months will consist of jogging and focus on training up my strength in the arms and building a butt! : D

And long walks in the forest…

Autumn in august?!

Time fly’s by! Summer is almost over but yesterday when I was going to work it was little freezing outside 5 °C IN AUGUST! That´s just depressing! I´m not ready for autumn yet, I still want to walk around in my dresses and summer heels. Today is a bit warmer but not summer warm. Okey I love autumn but not in august in the middle of September yes.

And the other part I don´t really know where all my autumn and winter clothes are…They are somewhere…And they need to stay in that hidden place some more weeks. But I can admit I bought some new cloths last week just for autumn season.

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It kills you in the end

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The best diet is easy as hell and you will not be able to sleep or eat. Just get your fucking heart broken by someone you just belived a future with. I haven´´t eat for weeks accept drinking youghurt and one smoothie. Will cry and then you don´t have anymore tears and you can still not sleep.

So every one of you who have been reading my blog for the past years knew that I have a eating disorder and I have been on the right track back to be helathy. But then again my heart broke by that one person.

Yes I´m sad like really sad. And yes it´s okey to be sad! AS long as you feel SAD. No i´m not a teen who breakup with my first boyfriend I´m an adult who belived in a future with this person and yes he is the love of my life, and nothing can change that.

For the moment I just want to sleep like really sleep and I won´t give up my hope but how sad I´m and in this hurt i feel like I´m dead and I need to put my shit togheter but nope i can´t do it right now. I haven´t sleep for months last month i could sleeo 4 hours straight but now it´s 20 minits or 1 hour after beeing up for 45 hours.

So YES this is the BEST DIET if you want to lose some fat, get your heart broken and don´t sleep and yes it will kill you slowely .